http://forums.electronicarts.co.uk/blogs/336279-the-jake/ The home of Electronic Arts Community en Tue, 24 Nov 2009 15:22:16 GMT vBulletin 60 http://forums.electronicarts.co.uk/images/ea_images_main/misc/rss.jpg http://forums.electronicarts.co.uk/blogs/336279-the-jake/ http://forums.electronicarts.co.uk/blogs/336279-the-jake/108-hardships-being-14-thanks-nutter.html Wed, 28 May 2008 16:33:03 GMT Hello again fellow friends. :)
I've lately been going through a lot of... hardships let's call them, which is a good thing in it's own way. It helps me learn from mistakes, let out anger and write something interesting. (Who wold want to read a blog about a happy person?!) I suppose my blog is a subtle way to just write whatever I feel like. A ventilation for my feelings that I can just shove on the internet. Great! Or rather a psychiatrist that isn't really there...

Let's start with one big problem. My emotions seem to be overcoming me a lot more. I know it's all part of growing up, something nearly everyone goes through. But it really makes me feel depressed. I'm not an angry person, I'd rather settle something through talking rather than fighting. The problem is no-one else seems to. Rather than play with their friends or have a nice walk or something they would rather talk a bowl of moldy tomato sauce found in the gardens and throw it over people. Thank God that wasn't me. I usually just bottle up my feelings during the day and let them out at the worst possible times. It's come to the point were I seem to cry at almost anything for no reason. Infact my eyes are watering now. I seem to cry at someone when I get angry rather than shout. Though I've always been like that it's just getting even worse.

Another problem. My family, the only person I have a pretty strong relationship with is my Sister. Who's really nice and knows what I'm going through. (Being a few years older.) I nearly hate my Father. He hardly ever talks to me without it being an order or turning it into an argument. If I'm alone with him he goes sits and reads his bike magazine rather than try to make any form of fatherly gesture. My Mums nice, I get the occasional hug and chat from her. Plus she's hilarious when she gets drunk. :lol: Infact My mum's side of the family is the only side I like. My Father's mum and dad have favourites and never spend time with use. But rather our cousins whose Mother likes to show off how great their kids are. Which isn't true, the most my cousin has ever done is start horse riding. My Father just passed me and didn't even realize I'm pouring my heart out to the internet.

Then there's the other problem. Love. I suppose a lot happens when your a teenager to do with it. But I fell in love when I was 10. Which seems impossible but it is true, I had the same mind as I do now I thought nearly all the same things. It's just my mouth would make them sound more childlike in a way. I wondered if it's even possible to fall in love at such a young age. But I suppose it's true. Teenagers can fall in love and I still am with the same girl, who consequently lives in New-Zealand. So it must be true to love at a young age, because I know i did.

So that's most of my feelings wrapped in a nutshell. Feel free to sympathize my adding comments. :)

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Goo'night. ]]> The Jake http://forums.electronicarts.co.uk/blogs/336279-the-jake/108-hardships-being-14-thanks-nutter.html http://forums.electronicarts.co.uk/blogs/336279-the-jake/67-childhood-heros.html Mon, 19 May 2008 18:48:15 GMT We all had Childhood heros, even I did. Yes me the greatest person of all time. =/ Well I say he was a hero, he was more of a TV actor, the person... We all had Childhood heros, even I did. Yes me the greatest person of all time. =/
Well I say he was a hero, he was more of a TV actor, the person he acted. When I was seven or so I used to religiously watch a program called Charmed. 8) For those who don't know, it was about three sisters that inherited powers and destroyed demons using magic potions and spells. ;] One of the guys - Leo was a white-lighter, a kind of guardian angel that could heal people and transport around using orbs. I always wanted to be able to do that.

But recently I've noticed a big change in what I consider a hero. For example I think Amy Winehouse, who was one of he greatest heroines for young women this year (:eek:) Is defiantly not a heroic person. Who would deserve a title for heroin after what she's done!?! Ah. I get it Heroin is a type of drug aswell... =/

So yeah, my most recent hero is probably... well I dunno I don't have someone I want to be any more, I'm myself and I'm not trying to shape my life into someone else's. Saying that... I'm a person who has a personality of everyone around me. For example at school I act like my friends, because that's what they want me to be like. o=On the internet, I pour out my emotions and act all clever to help me feel better. Plus the majority of people on this forum are pretty clever so i blend in. =D

So rather than starting a thread, If anyone wants to leave a comment about their childhood hero feel welcome to. It would make me feel better anyway. :)

Oddworld update.
I just got past the first level. Finally! Manage to save 22 out of 26 Mudokons, without help 8)
For those without a clue what oddworld is visit this site.

OMG - Someone has to sort out the fact we can only have 4 images in a blog. Or at least not include smileys. O.o ]]> The Jake http://forums.electronicarts.co.uk/blogs/336279-the-jake/67-childhood-heros.html http://forums.electronicarts.co.uk/blogs/336279-the-jake/24-black-holes-no-revelations.html Fri, 16 May 2008 19:27:30 GMT I've been wondering, what makes us, us? Do our emotions come from our souls, or are we just living people destined to die and forget everything? I don't think it's that simple, I hope it's not anyway. A life just full of empty "black holes no revelations" (excuse the pun.) It makes me think... :think:
Then again, who am I to judge what happens to us? So many questions... the biggest question,. Does it all really matter?
Of course not! We're all here, might as well make the most of it. =D

So yeah, I've has a pretty crappy week, Broken off my toe nail (ewww.) Had loads of tests and I now have the ***est haircut known to man. :|. Stupid stylist doesn't understand what a "Just trim" is. =/
On a happier note, I've done my test and found most of them pretty easy I'm getting Guitar hero III and Zelda twilight princess tomorrow and I'm going to a party. I've gotten into loads of random music now, Muse, Blink 182 Hoosiers, Dresden dolls, Kings of Leon, Velvet revolver, Hard-Fi, foo fighters. You name it, if it's not Chavvy I listen to it!

Then of course there are downsides to come, for instance I get to spend a lovely detention with the maths teacher from hell, for being 5 minutes late to class. =/ And then there's a really annoying person who calls every living thing ***. But that's sorted, I had an argument with him today after he threatened to batter up my best friend, I said just because he's soon going to live off his Mum's wages without a job simply because he prefers to call people *** rather than try at anything. That shut him up... kinda. Now aparently I'm going to be battered up as well. Pfft like to see that. :neushades: I can actually pack a punch if I need to. I made green cakes though. =D

So yeah, I might finish this entry just before I bore you all to death with my life. So far so good, night. :) ]]> The Jake http://forums.electronicarts.co.uk/blogs/336279-the-jake/24-black-holes-no-revelations.html