The Hardships of being 14. (Thanks Nutter!)
Posted 28-05-2008 at 05:33 PM by The Jake
Hello again fellow friends. 
I've lately been going through a lot of... hardships let's call them, which is a good thing in it's own way. It helps me learn from mistakes, let out anger and write something interesting. (Who wold want to read a blog about a happy person?!) I suppose my blog is a subtle way to just write whatever I feel like. A ventilation for my feelings that I can just shove on the internet. Great! Or rather a psychiatrist that isn't really there...
Let's start with one big problem. My emotions seem to be overcoming me a lot more. I know it's all part of growing up, something nearly everyone goes through. But it really makes me feel depressed. I'm not an angry person, I'd rather settle something through talking rather than fighting. The problem is no-one else seems to. Rather than play with their friends or have a nice walk or something they would rather talk a bowl of moldy tomato sauce found in the gardens and throw it over people. Thank God that wasn't me. I usually just bottle up my feelings during the day and let them out at the worst possible times. It's come to the point were I seem to cry at almost anything for no reason. Infact my eyes are watering now. I seem to cry at someone when I get angry rather than shout. Though I've always been like that it's just getting even worse.
Another problem. My family, the only person I have a pretty strong relationship with is my Sister. Who's really nice and knows what I'm going through. (Being a few years older.) I nearly hate my Father. He hardly ever talks to me without it being an order or turning it into an argument. If I'm alone with him he goes sits and reads his bike magazine rather than try to make any form of fatherly gesture. My Mums nice, I get the occasional hug and chat from her. Plus she's hilarious when she gets drunk.
Infact My mum's side of the family is the only side I like. My Father's mum and dad have favourites and never spend time with use. But rather our cousins whose Mother likes to show off how great their kids are. Which isn't true, the most my cousin has ever done is start horse riding. My Father just passed me and didn't even realize I'm pouring my heart out to the internet.
Then there's the other problem. Love. I suppose a lot happens when your a teenager to do with it. But I fell in love when I was 10. Which seems impossible but it is true, I had the same mind as I do now I thought nearly all the same things. It's just my mouth would make them sound more childlike in a way. I wondered if it's even possible to fall in love at such a young age. But I suppose it's true. Teenagers can fall in love and I still am with the same girl, who consequently lives in New-Zealand. So it must be true to love at a young age, because I know i did.
So that's most of my feelings wrapped in a nutshell. Feel free to sympathize my adding comments.
Goo'night.
I've lately been going through a lot of... hardships let's call them, which is a good thing in it's own way. It helps me learn from mistakes, let out anger and write something interesting. (Who wold want to read a blog about a happy person?!) I suppose my blog is a subtle way to just write whatever I feel like. A ventilation for my feelings that I can just shove on the internet. Great! Or rather a psychiatrist that isn't really there...
Let's start with one big problem. My emotions seem to be overcoming me a lot more. I know it's all part of growing up, something nearly everyone goes through. But it really makes me feel depressed. I'm not an angry person, I'd rather settle something through talking rather than fighting. The problem is no-one else seems to. Rather than play with their friends or have a nice walk or something they would rather talk a bowl of moldy tomato sauce found in the gardens and throw it over people. Thank God that wasn't me. I usually just bottle up my feelings during the day and let them out at the worst possible times. It's come to the point were I seem to cry at almost anything for no reason. Infact my eyes are watering now. I seem to cry at someone when I get angry rather than shout. Though I've always been like that it's just getting even worse.
Another problem. My family, the only person I have a pretty strong relationship with is my Sister. Who's really nice and knows what I'm going through. (Being a few years older.) I nearly hate my Father. He hardly ever talks to me without it being an order or turning it into an argument. If I'm alone with him he goes sits and reads his bike magazine rather than try to make any form of fatherly gesture. My Mums nice, I get the occasional hug and chat from her. Plus she's hilarious when she gets drunk.
Infact My mum's side of the family is the only side I like. My Father's mum and dad have favourites and never spend time with use. But rather our cousins whose Mother likes to show off how great their kids are. Which isn't true, the most my cousin has ever done is start horse riding. My Father just passed me and didn't even realize I'm pouring my heart out to the internet.Then there's the other problem. Love. I suppose a lot happens when your a teenager to do with it. But I fell in love when I was 10. Which seems impossible but it is true, I had the same mind as I do now I thought nearly all the same things. It's just my mouth would make them sound more childlike in a way. I wondered if it's even possible to fall in love at such a young age. But I suppose it's true. Teenagers can fall in love and I still am with the same girl, who consequently lives in New-Zealand. So it must be true to love at a young age, because I know i did.
So that's most of my feelings wrapped in a nutshell. Feel free to sympathize my adding comments.
Goo'night.
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I know how you feel about the depression thing. I know this probably wont help, but just remember it wont last forever. Find someone who you can just tell everything to and it will help, I swear.Posted 28-05-2008 at 09:24 PM by SchnoodlePlayer
Updated 28-05-2008 at 09:26 PM by SchnoodlePlayer -
Thanks Racheal. (hope I spelt that right.)
Something that does help me if I get to bad is meditation.
Calms me down.Posted 29-05-2008 at 01:50 AM by The Jake
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No, you didn't.
Rachael, actually.Posted 29-05-2008 at 01:54 PM by SchnoodlePlayer
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"The Hardships of being 14. (Thanks Nutter!)"
Posted 31-05-2008 at 03:45 AM by Nutter 
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Relax and iam sure you are enjoying life noow,Iam from New Xealand and i have gone throug the same thing still going through it now,I fell for a girl from India.Everybody has their phases in life where we feel sad but personally from what you have written i think you should just calm down control your emotions,These are all harships and to make it through would be great mate.
RadzPosted 15-09-2009 at 05:04 PM by Radz
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Relax and iam sure you are enjoying life now,Iam from New Xealand and i have gone through the same thing and iam still going through it now,I fell for a girl from India.Everybody has their phases in life where we feel sad but personally from what you have written i think you should just calm down control your emotions,These are all hardships and to make it through would be great mate.
RadzPosted 15-09-2009 at 05:05 PM by Radz
